I’ve been super lazy today. Didn’t go to church. Thought about taking a shower, still haven’t done that either. Rain does that to me.
I’ve also been in my head today. Maybe too much because I want to act on my thoughts. I’m fueling my eating disorder and I’m not sure what has caused this. It just happens.
My family is watching football. I could care less. I’m torn between forcing myself to be social or staying in my room where I feel content and safe. Recovery is hard.